this sign points to Caltech from Lake Ave.  it's presumably one of the signs they put up for the film crews that come to campus occasionally for various tv shows/movies.  i thought it was hilarious and had to take  a picture with my crappy camera phone. 

In an attempt to make a more modern homepage (rather than actually typing in html as I learned to in my freshman year in college), I've created a new site.  I've attempted to include information about  several different aspects and periods of my life.  Please check it out; hopefully you'll learn something you didn't know before.  It'll be under construction for awhile.

Current state of mind: 

I am done.  Done.  DONE.  I am done trying and trying and trying some more.  I am done doing my best and then some.  I am done trying to make things better.  I am done doing what people ask me to do.  I am done asking for help to receive...not help.  I am done.  I give up.  That's right, I just give up.  Take my spirit, my ideas, my belief that things can be better than they are this minute.  I just have nothing left to give.  For a company that wants to increase its diversity, in numbers and in thought, I would say there's little action to back that up.  If people were really interested in other points of view, they've been hiding it from me.  They want diversity as long as it fits into their little box and as long as it agrees with them.  They want diversity for their reputation.  The majority of people here have made me feel like I am nothing and have nothing but my hands to contribute.  They have made me feel like I should just be grateful to have a job at such an illustrious company.  I do not believe these messages and I am done subjecting myself to this environment.

 "a mathematic formula for happiness: R/E, or, Reality divided by Expectations.  There [a]re two ways to be happy: improve your reality, or lower your expectations." --Jodi Picoult, "Nineteen Minutes" 

Maybe Not by Cat Power

There’s a dream that I see, I pray it can be
Look cross the land, shake this land
A wish or a command
A Dream that I see, don’t kill it, it’s free
You’re just a man, you get what you can

We all do what we can
So we can do just one more thing
We can all be free
Maybe not in words
Maybe not with a look
But with your mind

Listen to me, don’t walk that street
There’s always an end to it
Come and be free, you know who I am
We’re just a living people

We won’t have a thing
So we’ve got nothing to lose
We can all be free
Maybe not with words
Maybe not with a look
But with your mind

You’ve got to choose a wish or command
At the turn of the tide, is withering thee
Remember one thing, the dream you can see
Pray it to be, shake this land

We all do what we can
So we can do just one more thing
We won’t have a thing
So we’ve got nothing to lose
We can all be free
Maybe not with words
Maybe not with a look
But with your mind

 hmmmm...